Maybe you just came to teach me what life is all about. But I wasn’t done learning yet.
We still had to come to a conclusion between Arabica or Robust and sunrises or sunsets. We still had to complete your weird ‘together bucket list’ which including jumping off cliffs and planes in simpler words – saying “hi” to Satan. We weren’t done binge-watching all of Disney or deciding who made better chocolate cake, it was obviously me. The paint buckets were still full, my canvas was still grey. You didn’t even look back like always this time. We had to go stargazing together. We had to go to that stupid lakeside picnic which you promised to come to after you lost to me at UNO deliberately. I was yet to settle on a pet name for you.
I no longer catch you smiling, gazing at me from the corner of my eye when I have been unknowingly ranting about my day. I no longer have to repeat myself twice because the ps5 remains untouched now. Our hoodies don’t smell of the familiar cologne. I no longer wake up to the smell of freshly brewed coffee and your husky morning voice. I no longer have to make stupid excuses to make you stay. The smiling lines of my eyes are now not seen, I don’t laugh like the old days. No one scolds me any longer when I drive fast or I forget to eat on time. I no longer have to worry about coming back early, because my home no longer breathes.